Maybe I was looking like I was falling asleep, but really I was falling apart. As of now, I wish to not enter church with you tomorrow. To you it is a place of worship and a chance to interact with similar people. To me it's remembering what we do in secret (hardly  ”holy”), and realising if I spend so much time around these people I'm just inviting someone to wrench open my heart and plunder. I can handle all the crap secularity throws at me. I cannot, however, handle all the shit christians force-feeds me