Friday, October 1, 2010

God Help Me

Man, this whole job search thing is wearying. 

I need a new job in a month. And hopefully a new state (COLORADO!)
But, I have no idea what will be going down at that time.

God keeps doing this. And while at some level, I trust, I still worry I will not find a job.

oy vey. 

I feel as if I have no home. I do not even seem to have a place where I have the most friends. Most of my Californian friends were lousy friends at best, and I am down to a few here, a few there.  I do not know where Jay will be in a year. I do not know where I am going to be in a year. I do not even know where I should try to go.

blah.

It is always at these times I seem to do spiritual spring cleaning. I try to shine up my heart because I want to be on a better level of understanding with God so I am more sensitive to his leading. How ridiculous, I should always be actively pursuing a greater degree of intimacy, but I get lazy. God help me.


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