Pilgrimage

It is pretty obvious to everyone that I do not want to live in California any longer. I hate being called a Californian. Call me a Coloradan, and I will be rather excited that you recognise and acknowledge that I am to be associated with such a great place. This has got me thinking about my spiritual life. We are pilgrims here on the earth, citizens of heaven on earth for just a short time. I do not find myself pining for heaven the way I do for Colorado. I am rather desperate to get to Colorado, but I do not long for heaven in such a way. I have struggled with this my entire life as a believer and I only recently began to see a glimpse of the longing that I should have. I was greatly saddened as a result of a sin committed and I could not imagine what I should continue to live for. And for once, my wish for death was accompanied by an actual wish for heaven. BUT. But then circumstances changed once more and my fickle heart was caught up in circumstances. Circumstances. Why must I base my person on event, and not on the person of my Saviour? Why is my emotion so capricious? I am convinced that the degree to which one's behaviour is based upon emotion directly correlates to the degree of worldliness and selfishness they possess. We would not be so prone to the whims of the heart if we were enraptured with Christ. In His presence, the presence of His perfect love, fear dissipates. Bitterness ceases. Self-pity has no place in His light. He must increase, I must decrease. Christ cannot fill a heart that is still occupied by self. And a heart filled with Jesus is a heart that longs to be with Him.

As is the usual case, I have a song for this--

but since the band isn't well known there are no lyrics or audio clips to be found!

Well, you can hear the beginning of the song if you click on the title.

I bought it here