Dreading, Hoping

I find out today. What a scary thing it is to wait. It's so hard to trust that God will provide for me. Because if this doesn't happen I don't know how all these circumstances will work out. I have to keep telling myself that he will take care of me. He has given me all things pertaining to LIFE and godliness.

Please, Lord. I want to go. And I want this boy there too. I want, I want, I want.

Self, praise him either way. Trust him, obey him.