script

Is it rash?

Yes: head over heels in 5 minutes.

No: this is 3 years in the making.

I never knew what it felt like to really fall for someone. Sure, I've kinda done it before, but never really before. It was always like a one day thing. . .where my mind kinda went "what if?" and then I talked myself out of it because I knew I didn't like them. Heck I didn't even like the idea of them. And even at that, it's been many months since I've had that happen.

But this is different. He's that friend that no one has really heard about from me, and I'm not entirely sure why. But I've thought of him often. I've made sure to keep in touch.

Though I long to be with him, to have more memories of his touch, I'm still glad I kept my distance. The right person at the wrong time is the wrong person. Back then was most definitely the wrong time. Is now the right time? I hope so.

I can get to know him now without the thrill of him being close and the electricity at his touch. Maybe it will be easier, to learn to love him without using him to meet my desire for affection. Because it really sucks that he's not here, but anything worth having is worth waiting for. And so the wait begins. I was waiting a long time for this. And then it comes, and I get to wait some more.

God is scripting a story, and I don't have a clue what the plot is.