an unruly evil, full of deadly poison

He said such damaging things to me. And maybe I to him.
Oh, the power of the tongue. Truth be told, even though I know I should take what my Creator says about me over what another person says, but if I'm going to be completely honest, it's easier to trust the tangible more than the invisible. I trust objects more than I trust God. I'm not always wholly convinced that God is going to provide every thing I need, but you rarely find me doubting the quality of my jeans. . .especially since I discovered Old Navy. That being said, I find it easier to think about the demeaning things he said to me than I do to believe what I read in my Bible.

Sleepwalker and Whispering Fingertips

My spirit is willing but my flesh is weak
My eyelids grow heavy and I might just fall asleep
Walking around in my sleep
Running into walls I cannot see
Falling and scraping up my face
Ignoring the softest spoken grace
How many times will I go and take the bait
Only for this hook to rip right through my face
How can I love you back?
What can I do to show you?
His piercing eyes meet mine
Please simply stay awake.
Talk to me and I'll hear you
Don't fall asleep this time
Gotta stay awake, gotta stay awake
Don't you see me reaching for you?
I swear I really do love you.
How can I love you back?
What can I do to show you?
His piercing eyes meet mine
Contemplating you is like a dream
I never want to wake up from what I finally see
Perfect circles turn in orbit
Following a perfect path from your perfect hand
When I look into your eyes
It's a world I can't believe
I can see my destiny
To be like you
Whispering fingertips
Leave your fingerprints
All over everything
Contemplating you is like a dream
I never want to wake up from what I finally see
Perfect circles turn in orbit
Following a perfect path from your perfect hand
Whispering fingertips
Leave your fingerprints
All over everything
When I look into your eyes
It's a world I can't believe
I can see my destiny
To be like you
Whispering fingertips
Leave your fingerprints
All over everything
--Flyleaf

Communication

It's amazing what can be accomplished though some candid conversation.
What was a source of pain before has been clarified, and has somewhat
lessened the blow. Wow!

Home, Sweet Home

I really miss home. I have a busier social calendar here, but life just
isn't what it used to be. Oh, God I want to go back there! I'm afraid
I might never, because Texas still seems to be in my future. . .and I'm
not sure how permanently.

When It's Over, Adie

My heart has been shattered. But never before have I wanted heaven so badly. Lord, keep me this way. You're so much better than any man on earth. I want to stayed focused on seeing you, not even caring about what happens down here in this blasted place.

It’s finally calming down
I’ve found the motion of life that spins around
Grows dim as I enter in

A trail of tears sing your embrace
The scars of death and life we face
But I know I’ll be with you soon

When it’s over
When it’s over
I’ll finally fall down at your feet
And feel your open arms take hold of me
When it’s over
When it’s over
I’ll finally touch your wounded hands
And see the beauty of what you have planned

Revealing grace’s final call
I can’t comprehend at all
My hope will be completed
Seeing you with eyes unveiled
Knowing without you I’d have failed
I’ll wait - come soon - I’m waiting

My anticipation turns into desperation
When I think of when I will be with you my Jesus

I know I shouldn't

but i REALLY HATE HIM right now

trust

what do you do when the one person that you trusted to protect you took from you exactly what they were to protect you from?