31 days

I had texting and web off my phone for a month. What a month! Sure, it was difficult at times, but I just used google chat a lot :)

I really slowed down my life by doing that and I liked it. I feel as I was able to focus more on God. I still struggle with some old loves. They keep calling me, and sometimes I entertain them. What I would give to loose all feeling for them. How does sin have such a grip on me? It is so natural, but I want to live by the supernatural. To experience the power that is not my own. Sadly, much of my life is led by me, but I want it to be completely His. I want to be so in tune to His will that I don't even have to think about doing it--I just do! I wish that I didn't struggle with my sin, but that I could just conquer it. It's as though I am in a game of tug-of-war, and sometimes I choose to go against sin myself, but it just pulls me down. The only way I can stay up and win is to put my Lord up, and then there is not even a struggle, for He has conquered. But my deeply ingrained pride often prevents me from calling on Him.