Faith.

Never before have I had so much faith. It seems so small, yet I see the
difference. Sure, I still have moments of fear and worry, yet it seems
I'm learning more and more to trust God. My finances are a big issue,
but I find myself sayin' God's gonna take care of me. And he does! (Have
I blogged about this before? Eh I don't care, I'll say it over and over
again that God is faithful and my ear is itchy again. Maybe it is
sunburned, and it only seems itchy when I'm in bed)

I am in awe at the difference in my life made by a small amount of faith
in my eternally infinitely faithful Maker. He provides. Sometimes not
in our timing, but when he does provide, it's the right time, and it
serves to bring Him the glory. When we have to wait for what seems a
long time, we realise it's not in human strength that our goals were
achieved. He'll take care of the rest!
http://www.poemhunter.com/song/he-ll-take-care-of-the-rest/

26

Eight years ago, you walked through the door, and there was your fan
club--your family who loved you so. They decided to throw you a
surprise birthday party. Little did they know it would be your last
birthday. They would have given the world if even to have just one
birthday more with you. Your world only completed 18 circuits around
the sun. Some remember you in life, but your youngest family members
will just know you only as the uncle who died too young. Never has such
a hard blow been dealt to your family. The scar will not heal in this
life. Now you should be 26. Your family should be celebrating with
you, but they are all crying instead. I miss you.

31 days

I had texting and web off my phone for a month. What a month! Sure, it was difficult at times, but I just used google chat a lot :)

I really slowed down my life by doing that and I liked it. I feel as I was able to focus more on God. I still struggle with some old loves. They keep calling me, and sometimes I entertain them. What I would give to loose all feeling for them. How does sin have such a grip on me? It is so natural, but I want to live by the supernatural. To experience the power that is not my own. Sadly, much of my life is led by me, but I want it to be completely His. I want to be so in tune to His will that I don't even have to think about doing it--I just do! I wish that I didn't struggle with my sin, but that I could just conquer it. It's as though I am in a game of tug-of-war, and sometimes I choose to go against sin myself, but it just pulls me down. The only way I can stay up and win is to put my Lord up, and then there is not even a struggle, for He has conquered. But my deeply ingrained pride often prevents me from calling on Him.

The Pilgrim's Progress

While this world tries to tell us to take control of our lives, follow
our hearts, and pursue our dreams, we have to remember that we are not
the world's. Christ has paid a high price for us; do we not owe Him our
very lives? A dynamic Christian is not subject to whim. A static
Christian is non-existent. When moving along in life, we must be moving
closer to God or we WILL be moving further away. Folllowing Christ is
exciting to say the least. It's scary, it's thrilling, and once you
experience it, you want more (sounds like a roller coaster!). God has a
way of surprising me all the time. I know I'm headed toward Heaven, but
I'm going through unfamiliar territory. I can't really see ahead--like
on the really foggy day a while back, I can really only see what
directly in front of me. Curves surprise me. Turns surprise me. But
I'm staying alert, so I'm ready once it comes!

I have so many desires floating around in my mind. I'm currently
working 2 jobs, volunteering almost every week, studying to be a pharm
tech, thinking about starting my own business, contemplating a move to
Texas and waiting for my husband to show up! And I have no clue how (or
what ) it's gonna play out! Gods already taken me on a pretty amazing
ride out here, and He continues to surprise me all the time.

Got my thoughts
I got my words
Got this head full of answers
Got You wrapped up
Got You under control
See my future like the past behind me
I think I know where You're leading
Don't need no questions
Don't need no rocking the boat
But I just forget all the mystery
I just forget who You are
When I know that I know
What You have down the road
When I'm sure that
I've figured You out
Help me see that I'm small
That I can't know it all
Cause You're so unpredictable
Cause You're so unpredictable
You said the foolish
Would shame the wise
To put my faith
In what's beyond my eyes
And to believe You
I have to come as a child
So help me to rest in the mystery
Of what I can't understand
When I know that I know
What You have down the road
When I'm sure that
I've figured You out
Help me see that I'm small
That I can't know it all
Cause You're so unpredictable
Can't wrap my mind around You
Can't put You in a box
Can't keep You safely contained, no no
You're gonna move the way
You wanna move today
Just let me follow along
When I know that I know
What You have down the road
When I'm sure that
I've figured You out
Help me see that I'm small
That I can't know it all
And I know that I know
What You have down the road
When I'm sure that
I've figured You out
Help me see that I'm small
That I can't know it all
Cause You're so unpredictable
Cause You're so unpredictable
You're unpredictable

"Unpredictable" Francesca Battistelli

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Annabelle M
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