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I'm so stressed out that I just feel like I'm shutting down. I can't keep up on my bills. I'm so short on money. I should be glad I at least have a job. How was I to know that my income isn't quite enough for all my bills? I love the people I work for and I love my job. But if I don't find more work soon I fear I will have to work for someone else. I REALLY don't want to do that, so I'm hoping that God will provide enough for me to stay here. My credit card company has called me 5 times in the past 3 days because I didn't make a payment. I've also had to skip my other 2 cc's and my car insurance. My bank charged me an overdraft fee for a bill they didn't even cover so now I'm out another $35.

A verse I read a few months ago keeps going through my mind: Shall we indeed accept good from God and shall we not accept adversity? Job 2:10

I randomly started reading slowly and irregularly through Job in addition to what I've been reading for my devotions. I wonder if God gave me the thought to do so in preparation for this time.

And today I read: Be strong and courageous; do not be afraid nor dismayed before the king of Assyria, nor before all the multitude that is with him; for there are more with us than with him. With him is an arm of flesh; but with us is the LORD our God,to help us and to fight our battles. And the people were strengthened by the words of Hezekiah king of Judah. 2 Chronicles 32:7&8

I really want to wholly trust God to take care of me. I don't even know how to not fear.