FALLLLLLLL!!!!!!!!!!!

It is Fall-y here!
Lol or maybe Fall-E
The trees are turning gold. It is so pretty!
It rained 4.29 inches on my bday, and the rain didnt't even start until late afternoon. It broke some sort of record.
The weather has been quite pleasant--warm but not too hot.
I've had a lot of turmoil recently. I am just struggling, and not even always sure with what.

I've been making new friends though. . .talked to a guy from church for a couple of hours on Friday, and I met another guy today and we did random errands and eating together today.

It was a pretty cool day.


I feel weird. It's the 19 thing. Whoopdedoo! I'm no longer a minor in CO! But I feel old. It's like being a tween. maybe more like tweenty. between teens and 20 or something. please tell me to shut up now. Ima go read Mad's blog

I'm getting old

I've spent hours upon hours working on designing a nice profile for Danyo.

I've been talking to Liz a lot via text.

I want to stay 18 until I turn 25. I'm dreading turning 19. And I really don't know why. But the cool thing about being 25 is you finally have all the important adult freedoms. (21 isn't it!) Because at 25, you can drive, vote, smoke, drink, and GET A RENTAL CAR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


Oh and if the housing market doesn't change much by the time I'm 25 and I do well with saving my extra money, I might have enough for a down payment on a house.

I'm tired. I'm going to Safeway to get some dark chocolate(I must be craving antioxidants because I sure do get a lot between the dark chocolate and large quantities of green tea I consume) and I'm going to clean my room. Because my mom will be here in 24 hours and my room looks bad!!!

Time (but God)

How is it that we live in the realm of time but at the same time we live outside of it? We are eternal creatures with a temporal life. A life within Life.

At this time in my life, I am finishing the day that marks one week prior to the commencement of my 20th year. I'm going to be that weird age of 19 next Thursday. I'm telling Liz, my newest sister that I wasted over 3 years of my life on one specific entity. I wish I could get those 3 years back. I wish I could have the spiritual maturity that she has. At her age, I was a mess. I was in Bible College and on my way to failure.

But God

has rescued me from myself
has blessed me with so much more than I thought I would see
has given me a joy that I can't explain


It's been almost two years since I left Bible College.
And those two years have held a lot of memories, both good and bad.
Sometimes it seems that the time has gone by so fast, sometimes it seems as though it was ten times as long.

I can get down about my failures over the years. Why can't I be like those younger than I who love God in a way I didn't before?

But that time is nothing compared to eternity. I wasted but now is the time for me to lay aside the weight of my past and press toward heaven. As Evan would sing, "I'm living for the heavenlies" I'm living my life as a citizen of heaven, making my time count. Much of the past 19 years will not survive the fire but I want to make whatever remaining time I have matter. I wanna pack in the gold and silver.

I messed up but God restored


Am I delirious? It's late