Desire

The fire's lit and brightly burning
I want to know: is it true?
Is this longing and strong yearning
Desire in my heart from You?
Is it just flesh ambitious
Living present by the past?
Is it just self-made wishes,
Will it still and always last?
I know I say I want to go
But is it in Your plan for me?
Lord, please by open doorway show
I want eyes for Your plan to see
Take away all I want
And show me what I need
Let not adversity daunt
But only Your Word heed
Let me be quiet and still
And speak Lord Jesus to my heart
Not mine, but only Your will
I want to never from it part
--2005
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The Writings of a Child

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I don't get it, how can this be
that the King of all would die for me?
I'm dirty, I'm filthy
But with righteousness he'll fill me?
He was nailed to that would
Even though he did all that he should
There's been a mistake, I did the sin!
You say it's because my heart he wants to win?
He did this by his love divine,
And now he wants my light to shine?
The death of this Man
Was only to save all that He can?
I need only on Him believe?
For everlasting life to receive?
The God of glory died that day
That all could then say,
"I've seen the truth, I've seen the Light,
My gloom became joy, I have day from the night."
I'll live with my Lord
Forever, but never bored
For to Him daily I'll give
My most fervent heartfelt praise
It'll fill my days
I'll worship Him always
My praise daily I'll give
During the eternity in which I'll live
Even now I'll do the same
Living for His glory and His fame
Proclaiming to all me,
"Open your hearts, let the Saviour in
Give Him your heart
And from eternal death you'll part
Yes, to Him all give
And get ready for the most exciting life you can live
Choose to on Him wait
And He'll show you many things great
He'll make you whiter than snow
And give you more joy than you could ever know
So please, all to him turn
For now you did learn
That it's Him you need
For eternal life guaranteed
I've seen Him, I know that it's true
That why I'm telling you
Confess with your mouth the Lord Jesus
The One who from sin frees us
Lay aside all things petty
And now for heaven you're ready
Now don't you see
How great this life can be?
Following Him who died yet rose on day the third?
(You'll find that in the Bible, His word)
Jesus is Lord, God and Saviour
Please accept this wonderful favour!"

Sunset

I guess if I'm going to be so negative about California I can at least admit that I had so much fun with the Torres boys and Ashley yesterday.

We went to the beach in Torrey Pines, and just chilled there (I was the only one who wanted to get wet, and so I did!!!)

I felt that fresh salty air again. I gazed at the spanse of the ocean. And I had some delicious times with friends. I think the spectacular sunset as we drove on PCH really brought me back to terms with this Land of Fruits and Nuts.

What a way to commence summer! But I must say, watching a Rocky Mountain Sunset will probably make me hate California again. Hahaha. So fickle!


Katie and I went to the beach on Thursday night, and we had a lot of fun there. And Murphy hates us, especially when we are together I think, so what could go wrong DID go wrong. All our stuff got wet and sandified. Then Crystal met us there, and we met back at Katies for a quarter of one movie and a half of another. Go figure. Lol.


So I guess I do have a couple of friends in Cali.

haha, I'm still wondering where everyone is else. . .I have been here for 10 days and seen only Crystal, Katie, and the Torres boys

I still hate California

nice. i was supposed to go to madi's play yesterday and to the beach, but it turned out my friend who was gonna pick me up had family over and couldnt leave

so i sat here at my grandma's


waiting. waiting. waiting. waiting.


finally, six hours later, i went home.

its just been lousy the whole time i've been here. uncle Ben has been wonderful, taking me around and such, but i still feel stuck. no car. haven't got to spend time with ANY friends, but at least i'll see KT tonight.

i've had a cruddy week.
thanks, friends for not responding, or at best, leaving me here
thanks, God, for moving me out of this blasted place. I never guessed you could give me such beauty. I love Colorado.

I want to go back home home

Ok, so I know I said I wanted to come back to California.

I HATE IT!

I have not been to the beach a single time, I've only seen my family, and five minutes of Crystal and five minutes of Karlee. I guess my friends have disappeared or are too busy or something. I don't know since I haven't heard from them.

Big whoop, I've seen family, been to an uncle's graduation, a Fathers' Day get-together, and washed windows. Oh and I went to church. At least I saw Pastor Dan.

And now I sit at home feeling completely useless. I could be exploring a creek or watching Edison instead of sitting here blogging.

Danyo finally did make it to California. . .but he has to stay later than anticipated, so I'm gonna be stuck here longer.

I want to leave. I hate this blasted weather and boredom, etc.

Home Sweet Home

I really really want to go back home.

Ben's graduation is today, and his party is on Saturday. . .but I wish it could be over with.

I miss Colorado, and I've only been here two days. I really don't feel like I belong here. I'm not welcome here, just go ask --. Ugh, I hated being around -- yesterday. I want to see --, but --'s so hateful to me.

yeah, I want to see my friends, but. . .cant y'all just come out and see me? ;)
We Coloradoans are a lot nicer than Californians--just look at how we drive!

Just a few days till I'm back home

Just a few more WEARY days and then, I'll fly away