Well That's just. . .Beachy!

To-day the kids and I went to the beach. I'm not too familiar with the OC so I was gonna go to Laguna Beach, but Dan told me Newport. We definitely had fun, although I'm hoarse from saying so any times, "keep up," "come here," &tc. Patience had to go to the bathroom. . .which was probably about half a mile away, so August kept dawdling. Then when she felt fine and we had to go back (can't leave keys and phone unattended TOO long!), she was the slow poke. Oh goodness, I hate having to repeat myself so many times! They think the more they beg, the more they'll get. . .but the more they beg, the more I want to say no. I don't think I got any darker :( But I'm sure a few walks with Cookie in the middle of the day will restore my California girl appearance. But that will also mean my hair will get lighter. . .maybe I'll let it, and dye it later. It's been 7 months anyway, almost 8. Courtney did a great job! I think the kids are really tired, they are being especially difficult. Can't wait to sleep tonight--I gotta get up early to go to church because I need to be there at 2nd service so I can observe and I will be doing the powerpoint 3rd service. I still look forward to that, but I need to tell Pastor Dan that I may be out of town for a few weeks. . .or permanently. It used to be that I couldn't leave because CCV was the only place I though I could call my church home; and with the two different ministries I volunteered in, I thought I would be there forever. . .both times. Both times, it was my mother that asked me to terminate. . .but this time, it will be me. And each time, I've been sad to do it. This feels different though. Something changed in those 4 months I didn't do A/V. I don't think it's just a consequence of my misdeeds; no I think God put my heart in another place. Maybe it was just flesh ambitious, living present by the past. I feel like a flake. Both times I left, it was sudden, and I felt like such a disappointment. I don't want that again. I don't want to take for granted the kindness of Pastor Dan. Time to go wash Paitce's hair!