Lost: the heart of an 18 year old girl. Responds to the name "Lala." If found, please call owner at 917.7852. Although lost in CA, it will most likely be found in another state.
I realised my heart just isn't in California. Ok, I've known that for quite a while now, but it's screaming louder and louder for me to join it in ----. I love SoCal. I have lived in Oceanside and Vista my entire life. I love downtown San Diego. I enjoy driving PCH through North County Coastal. I love standing on the beach and feeling the crisp salty wind and the warm sun. But I want out. I'm living in Irvine right now. I've liked coming up here since about the third time I went to see the Torres family. Actually, I do have fond memories of this place even before I met them. This is my second try at working in the OC. Yeah, it's great, but at the same time, it's work. I love what I do, and I'm gonna keep working hard at it. But my heart is not in it, because it's hundreds of miles away. There's nothing wrong with where I live, I have no problems with my job. I'm not apathetic--my heart is somewhere, just not here. Maybe the problem is me. I just can't stand to be trapped here. I've some debt, it's a trap. I don't have a place to live when I am done working here in 2.5 weeks. What should I do? Why not leave the state? Sure, it's hard since I have no money, maybe almost impossible, but isn't that what California is? Seriously, how many young adults can afford to be self-sufficient in SoCal? I don't know any. Everyone I know from high school is still living at home. Most of them don't have to pay their parents rent, they don't have a car payment, car insurance, gas, health insurance, etc to pay. Well, guess what, I do! And I'm behind. People make less in other places than they do here, but the rent for an apartment is half the price. I moved out two weeks after I turned 18. Lol, guess who my closest friends are. . .hmm, the ones who moved out at 17 and 19. The ones whose hearts (and even physical selves) are in other places. Maybe their influence, their advantage in wisdom and experiece have made an effect on my burning desire to get out. But I wanted it independently of them. . .they help fan the flame. . .I'm leaving here as soon as possible. I'll find my heart in ---.
I realised my heart just isn't in California. Ok, I've known that for quite a while now, but it's screaming louder and louder for me to join it in ----. I love SoCal. I have lived in Oceanside and Vista my entire life. I love downtown San Diego. I enjoy driving PCH through North County Coastal. I love standing on the beach and feeling the crisp salty wind and the warm sun. But I want out. I'm living in Irvine right now. I've liked coming up here since about the third time I went to see the Torres family. Actually, I do have fond memories of this place even before I met them. This is my second try at working in the OC. Yeah, it's great, but at the same time, it's work. I love what I do, and I'm gonna keep working hard at it. But my heart is not in it, because it's hundreds of miles away. There's nothing wrong with where I live, I have no problems with my job. I'm not apathetic--my heart is somewhere, just not here. Maybe the problem is me. I just can't stand to be trapped here. I've some debt, it's a trap. I don't have a place to live when I am done working here in 2.5 weeks. What should I do? Why not leave the state? Sure, it's hard since I have no money, maybe almost impossible, but isn't that what California is? Seriously, how many young adults can afford to be self-sufficient in SoCal? I don't know any. Everyone I know from high school is still living at home. Most of them don't have to pay their parents rent, they don't have a car payment, car insurance, gas, health insurance, etc to pay. Well, guess what, I do! And I'm behind. People make less in other places than they do here, but the rent for an apartment is half the price. I moved out two weeks after I turned 18. Lol, guess who my closest friends are. . .hmm, the ones who moved out at 17 and 19. The ones whose hearts (and even physical selves) are in other places. Maybe their influence, their advantage in wisdom and experiece have made an effect on my burning desire to get out. But I wanted it independently of them. . .they help fan the flame. . .I'm leaving here as soon as possible. I'll find my heart in ---.
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